scary, huh?

it's emotionally and spiritually overwhelming to consider how your child's ability to appreciate the thing you think most often defines you may be diminishing. the end is not yet in sight, yet the end does not look bleak--all things in good time. but, the flood of "what if's" and "why me's?" can really freak you out.

it's been a while

holy cow! i can't believe how long it's been since i blogged.
i'm not really sure that i have anything to say today that gave the uncontrollable urge to type, but i did notice that my blog address is on email signature. that reminded me that people do click on those occasionally and i really ought to say something.
of course, the same old topics are always good--my wife is beautiful and loving, my kids are a immeasurable blessing, allergy season sucks (rather, it blows--as in, my nose).
i've had some personal struggles lately, but they are different than previous life-things. i'm not sure that i'm ready to share them nor that i ever will. the small world is getting smaller and i wouldn't want to cause unnecessary harm just because i want to spout for a bit.
so, until inspiration strikes again, i'll sign off.

in case you're wondering

in case you're wondering...
nope, not back into blogging mode yet. the only reason i'm giving this update is because i noticed my previous post about not-blogging referenced christmas. i have made it past that holiday, but i'm just not inspired to blog any further at this time.