Thursday, August 14, 2008

planetary alignment

i don't know if the planets aligned or not.
i'm not aware if there was a full moon that night.
i couldn't care less what the doctor's hair color was.
on this day, a few years back, my wife was born. and, while, i'm happy to celebrate her and her life with us and her presence and contributions to our lives, that's not the point of this blog entry today.

i'm here today to write about the great and amazing God we have!
the mind boggles when you consider the intricacy of His design and world in motion. two cells that are too small to be seen by our naked eye join together. even though they are very oppositional to each other, they work together to grow and multiply and become a person.
and even smaller than that, we think about the total sum of genetics and their influences on our lives are contained in those two cells (in fact, more information than that is stored when we consider the possibilities of dominant and recessive genes).
then, i'm astounded how the Lord created the human body to grow and develop and mature. which is a good thing, i think. imagine trying to push out a full-grown person!
but, when we realize that because God saw us and said "it is very good", we know that we are greater than the sum of our parts. and because we have greater potential than our physical limitations of time and space, we know that this world is not all there is--there is a better place, there is a better life, there is a better way.
once we consider how God, as a Master Orchestrator, creates interworkings and crossed-paths of immeasureable influences, we cannot fathom how He brings us to where we are. but, we know He does. (in the case of my wife, though she was not birthed from her mom, God knew how her adoption would come about. and, He knows and intimately loves the young woman who was not able to raise a child.)
it becomes uncomfortable when i consider all the things in life that might have led my wife or my self down different pathways. one split second of difference can make a tidal wave of possible different scenarios. visualize chaos theory but then increase the exponent, not by the nth degre, but by the infinity of diety.
and yet, the simplicity of our lives together assures me that i am blessed. when i realize what could have been--and i'm not trying to live in a shadow of regret--i realize how great it is to be me: right here, right now, living under the blessings of an Almighty Creator who is small enough to sleep in an obscure manger.

i love You, Lord. and, i lift my voice to worship You for working Your plan in my life. but, it's not my life--it's Your's. i am Yours--all that i am, all that i have, all that i aspire to be is because of You and for You. thank You for rhonda and her unimaginable light in my life. even though the calendar says it has only been a short time but human standards, i cannot remember my life before her and i don't want to try to imagine my life without. because she points me to You, i know she is from You.
and for the young woman who will never know the joy that the child she carried and birthed brings to me, i pray that wherever she is (i don't even know if she is still living) that You would bless her and thank her for me.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

catch 22

isn't it interesting (please hear my sarcasm) that technology gets more and more involved and complicated so that we can think we are less and less busy and more and more connected. what a line of crap we've been given.