verbalize

i often find it hard to verbalize what i'm thinking. sometimes things are so overwhelming that i can't express it. sometimes there are too many variables to condense into words. sometimes my head is too full to process everything. mostly, though, i'm confused by the polarity.
so, (no pun nor sarcasm intended) thank God for a Holy Spirit that interceeds on our behalf. for those times when we don't know how are what to pray--He takes care of it. whew! what a relief from worry about worrying! what a joy for joy unspeakable! what a liberation from bondage! what a help in my helplessness! what an aid in my brokenness!
of course, there are responsibilities that come with it, but it's totally worth it. to be a slave to Christ carries awesome responsibilities and awesome benefits. the paradox of freedom because of slavery is yet one more thing that requires the Holy Spirit to speak on my behalf--for i am speechless.

what now?

Lord, what are You teaching me now?
what is the thing You want me to get through my thick head?
i simply ask that You show it to me, make me aware so that...well, as i pray, i realize every reason i can offer for 'why' i want to know is selfish. break my heart and my will and make me wholly Yours. teach me in Your good timing and within Your perfect will.
(show me what it means to be truly)
sincerely & humbly, i pray. amen.

what now?

Lord, what are You teaching me now?

what is the thing You want me to get through my thick head?

i simply ask that You show it to me, make me aware so that...well, as i pray, i realize every reason i can offer