Thursday, September 18, 2008

free clothes

some of you have noticed that i've lost some weight. yes, it was intentional; no, i'm not sick.
but, i've had to clean out my closet of clothes that are too big. it's a good feeling.

so, if anyone is in want of some new or gently used (a few are very used) men's clothes, just let me know. they're free.

men's shirts size: XL - long and short sleeved; button down and/or pull-overs, t-shirts
men's sweaters: XL
men's shorts: 38
men's pants: 38x32 or 38x34
a winter coat: XL

you know where to find me if you want some.

ps - this is not an issue of getting rid of it. i can take care of that. i'm just offering to my loyal readers first.

balance

i read a quote.
i can't remember who said it or the exact wording of it, but the jist of it is quite disturbing to me and i'm struggling to find the balance between the truth it holds and my way of life.
it goes something like this... "how sad is it when our prayers for needs of self grossly outweight our prayers for forgiveness."
the writer (or speaker if that was the case) recognizes how often we pray for physical things and not for spiritual things. i can see what he saw. whenever i hear 'prayer request', i immediately think about what that person 'needs'. these are legitimate concerns; real people, real problems. job searches are real. diseases like cancer are real. travel mercies are real.
but, how much more should we be praying, asking God for forgiveness?
how much more should we be bringing the names of lost friends to the Lord?
how much more should we focus our divine conversations on eternal things, not on temporal, fleshly things?
a lot more, i dare say.
that's my struggle: i agree 100% with the quote i read, but it goes against everything that well-intentioned prayer warriors have been telling me for the last 34 1/2 years. any prayer list i've ever seen or prayed over is almost exclusively about health concerns.
rare is the occasion that...well, you see what i mean.

got any thoughts on it? please let me know. i need wise counsel on this one. i'm really struggling with it.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

the power is back on

our way of life is returning to "normal". we were without power for 36 hours and without phone for about 60 hours. with the exception of food prep and storage, i gotta say i didn't miss it much.
it's true that i couldn't check my email or facebook or blog. and i survived.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Lord, i feel like a failure right now. i feel inadequate, incapable, insufficient and out of touch. i don't think i can do it today.
my head knows that You empower me, love me, support me, qualify me; i can't find it in my heart today.
i need You.