revelation

i've never been one to stay current with a journal or diary. the best of intentions usually peter out by january 3. so, this blog thing seems like it's here to stay--especially since my hoards of adoring fan depend on it for their daily sustenance and spiritual guidance (i'm so full of it).
any way, having never been the one who journals regularly, it's been an interesting revelation to go back and read about things that were important to me on those particular days. it's sort of a autobiography in process. this is who i am and what i do; it represents me as well as anything, short of actually being me.
that leads me to the trend that i notice--i write more about my family than i do about the things God is teaching me. and while we are all called to love, nurture, care for and provide for our families, what does this say about my priorities? the best thing i can do for my family is to be living in the presence of God. if He's not speaking to me, it's probably because i'm not listening to Him--a whole separate issue that i'm accountable for.
please don't misread what i'm saying--i love my family dearly (and those 5 measly words cannot contain the full amount of love i have for them), but i love God more--or at lease i'm supposed to. Jesus drew the comparison of love of God and love of family. His words lead us to understand that the love for God should be so vast and great that the love of family pales and looks as pitiful as hate. we don't hate our families, but we love God that much more. am i doing that? am i expressing to Him? do i brag about Him as quickly as a post a picture of my baby?

Heavenly Father, thank You for Your patience. Your grace is much needed, especially in times when i need to refocus my blog writings.