didn't know it

on those occasions when, in conversation, some one rhymes, we always say, "you're a poet and didn't know it." but i much prefer the occaions when i'm speaking and something comes out of mouth that is profound. there's something about the dynamic of saying it outloud that often condenses all the thoughts and it clicks, it makes sense.
i'm on an adventure these days.
i'm not going to tell you all the details because they're really not the point right now. someday i may tell you about it, but maybe not (and you'll just have to deal with the lack of info).
anyway, i was talking to someone about a particular harbor in this voyage--an opportunity. i was tell this person about the chain of events that led to this opportunity and i said it. IT.
"i don't what will come of this. i'm not a fatalist that says 'what will be, will be'. but God has brought me to this place. it's so clear to me that He's leading this. even if doesn't happen, i'm going to learn from this. that's very exciting and motivates to go for it."
my revelation was not that God was leading--i'm very aware of that (i couldn't handle this life without Him). my revelation was that regardless of the outcome, i'm learning from it.
in my prior post, i made a point about Romans 8:28 as we see it in the life of moses (i'm mixing testaments, i know). just because we live according to Romans 8:28 doesn't mean that life is always easy, breezy. to quote myself, "like any responsible parent, God does what is best for his children whether or not it brings comfortable scenarios".
it makes sense to me now. whether or not i reach the goal, i am called to reach for the goal. pass or fail aren't the point of it--to quest, to strive, to glorify God along the journey--that's the point of it all.
"now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: fear God and keep His commandments, for this is the whole duty of man. for God will bring every deed into judgement, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil." Ecclesiastes 12:13, 14